Saturday, August 6, 2011

Homeschooling Again

We made it through our first year of homeschooling and even decided to do it again this year!  Last year was one of the most amazing years of my life so far. I had our second baby girl and took on the incredibly intimidating, scary task of homeschooling my third grade daughter.
I have to say it was an interesting year and we both did a lot of growing and learning. I struggled in the beginning with the pressure of being a perfect teacher and making sure that I was organized and well planned. I am an organized person in general but I am talking picture perfect and unrealistic organization here. There was an overwhelming amount of information out there about homeschooling and the different methods and curriculums that I should or shouldn't use. I am grateful for technology and the resources available to me but enough was enough!
I was so worried about getting it perfect that it was making me lose sight of the real reasons I decided to homeschool to start with. So, I decided to take this summer and figure out what I really wanted to make this year be like. Well, the school year is starting in less than three weeks and I am so excited about this year! Not like I was last year but in a calm peaceful way. I have a peace about this year that I didn't have last year. Again, don't get me wrong. I am so thankful for the amount of free resources available to me and I can't imagine how I could ever do without it. But I am free of the burden to do everything I see. I want our time together this year to be about quality not quantity. I want her to feel free to be creative and not feel the rush of a schedule and to-do list. I want her to take time to enjoy the moments and feel fully present in each moment. I want her to laugh about things and find joy in learning. But most of all I want her to find God in everything she does, to see that she needs Him all day everyday. Not just prayer time before bed or before we eat or on Sundays. The only way for her to see these things is to see ME doing these things. I read yesterday that we should not be worried that our children don't listen to us, we should worry that they are watching us. Yeah, that's pretty deep... ouch! So as we begin this next journey I open myself up to learn just as much, probably more, than she does. I will be fully present in each moment. I will begin the transformation of her being dependent on me and her daddy to being fully dependent on Jesus Christ. Our success will not be defined by keeping up with the best mommy blogs or doing every print out and neat craft that we see, or by how many subjects we cram into one day, or how fast she can multiply or divide or say the state capitals. Our success will be defined by LOVE. A Christ like love that we spread around like wildfire and touch as many people as we can. We will find joy in each day as we do math problems, reading, writing, and history.
So I plan to blog as a journal of things we do throughout the year and reflect on things. Hopefully it will inspire and help another mommy that gets sucked into the pressure of perfection. I will surround myself with things that will keep me on path and I will for sure get lost and need to redirect but I know I can do it with the Lord by my side. So bring on 2011-2012 school year cause I am ready!